It’s
always hard to start to concentrate. The mind darts like a chicken, trying to
escape thinking even though thinking is the most rewarding function of man. Doc
could take care of this. When you know what you’re doing you can handle it. He
set his jaw and was starting to turn back to his desk when he saw out of the
corners of his eyes the flash of a skirt. He looked out the window again. A
girl had come out of the Bear Flag and was walking along Cannery Row toward
Monterey. Doc couldn’t see her face, but she had a fine walk, thigh and knee
and ankle swinging free and proud, no jerk and totter the way so many women
walked as they fell from step to step. No, this girl walked with her shoulders
back and her chin up and her arms swinging in rhythm. It’s a gay walk, Doc
thought. You can tell so much by a walk—discouragement or sickness,
determination. There are squinched-up mean walks and blustering walks, shy
creeping walks, but this was a gay walk, as though the walker were going
happily to a meeting with someone she loved. There was pride in the walk too,
but not vanity. Doc hoped she would not turn the corner, but she did. There was
a flick of skirt and she was gone. But Doc could see in his mind her swinging
limbs, the melody of her lithe, swift movement. Probably ugly as a mud fence,
he thought, and then he laughed at himself. “That’s full circle,” he said.
“Mind, I congratulate you. You jumped me to sex, translated it to aesthetics,
and ended with sour grapes. How dishonest can I be? And all because I don’t
want to go to work. I’ll work my head off to avoid work. Come, mind. This time
you don’t get away with it—back to the desk.”
John
Steinbeck, Sweet thursday